Eat Your Heart Out

So I was sitting outside watching people, just watching; observing. And I saw many couples together. Some just strolling along, others running and laughing to get somewhere, and then, I saw this couple embracing each other. It seemed a little odd, but you know what, they didn't care. They were just purely lost in their moment. A long drawn out hug, ending with a steamy, also drawn out, kiss. It was cute. That made me think of this other couple I saw a few months ago. I was on the bus heading home after a rather active, yet boring, day; and I saw this couple get off the bus. And instead of the usual hug and kiss, I see them just ponce. The guy grabs the girl and dips her a little. With his hand grasped tightly to the back of her head, and the other hand on her waist, they're faces were locked in a Hollywood-perfect make out session. In all honesty, I thought I was watching them say goodbye forever in an epic romance film or something. It wasn't raunchy (a little unexpected and out of the norm) but it was dramatic and soulful. That makes me think. What is it like to be with someone you truly can't get enough of? All my past relationships have kinda been there solely so I wasn't alone. Yes, maybe I had a little crush or whatever, but it was never anything undying. Only my last relationship was serious, but even so, we weren't right for each other. I feel bad for the guy, but he needs better people skills, at least with the ladies. I don't know, that was a really complicated relationship, but meaningful too. I still want to be friends with him (cliche I know) and I'm hoping that will work out. Leaving that situation now though, has left me feeling, stripped. It's been 9 months since I've been this single before, and I don't know how to deal with it. I know I should be happy to be single. I'm like, free! I'm not saying I'm not happy alone, maybe its just tough right now considering all the 'issues' around me. Also there's something inside me that tells me I gotta hold out, stay single, someone great is in your midst and you don't want to give that up. Oh god! I sound so cheesy, and like, who the hell am I to get all philosophical on people... lol but yea. This is how I think I suppose. Still here, wringing out the bottom of my heart.

. : Sex is so easy, why is love so damn hard? : .