It's What I Want

I want to fall into sleep and never rise again.
I want to stop these tears from streaming.
I want to forget the pain and anguish.
I want to smile just once more.
I want to feel loved.
I want to cave in.

What exactly is it I want?
To finally be happy and free.
To rest in peace.

. : I'm standing by, watching my life fall apart : .

Danger is Just a Word

This is all too familiar. This is all too safe.
Excite me! Entice me!
I'm feeling too much as ease.
Leave the safety blanket behind.
I need to walk amongst the shadows.

The cold hands of hunger and fear grow,
but here I am ready to go.
Outside these walls, I'll let my guard down.
Be careful! Watch out!
I need to dabble into the unknown.

Food doesn't fuel me anymore.
Money only goes so far.
Drugs keep me wanting more.
My life is a montage of messy memories.
For a quarter I'll sing you a song of love and despair.

Lift your arms in the air and scream!
Feel your lungs, your heart, your soul.
I am free! Without a care.
Watch the onlooker, and the passerby.
Not one of them shares in my ecstasy.

No one can rob you of your goods.
Your mind is treasure chest of thoughts.
Unless you go insane, and loose all you've got.
Then all you're left with is room to breathe, and the wind on your back.
Don't leave me behind.

So take off your seat belt.
Let's walk down this jagged road hand in hand.
The clouds are forming, but I'm not scared.
I'm dressed for rainy weather.
Show me what you got, I'm ready for adventure!

. : Living life like it's gonna end tomorrow : .